I love this song!! I am not planning on leaving any time soon but I can definately relate to the feelings in this song!! Both of my favorite men...hubby and daddy...have jobs that keep them gone for long periods of time..I hate that! But those are the men I love!
1. I played pee wee softball for 2 seasons on a team called the 1/2 pints.
2. I weighed the same amount from the time I was 13 until I got pregnant with my daughter just after I turned 20...136 pounds!!...i weigh a little more than that now!!
3. Moulin Rouge is one of my all time favorite movies!
4. I once drove down the cruise strip in nothing but my skibbies
5. I was almost kicked out of high school....had to go to drug rehab as a freshman!! I got clean the winter after I graduated!!
Baby boy was born in November of 2000! The delivery was insane!! They had to pump his heart enutero for 20 minutes!! I was sure God was gonna take him from me because I hadn’t wanted him!! But I do now but I do now!!! I cried and cried. He was grey when he was born but he had a set of lungs on him!! Baby girl was soo protective and hubby he was beaming from ear to ear!!
We were happy for like a second!! I dunno what it was that made me miserable all the time I just was!! We bought a new place on contract and lost in like 2 months. Had to go back and live with the parents!! I wouldn’t go back to work!! Was still in school and tryin hard to finish that!! Moved to the farm I had grown up on! My mom had a trailor there and we moved in! baby boy was 10 months old! I was nuts for what ever reason!! Full of rage and I directed it all at hubby!! I am not certain what it was … maybe too much too fast!! So I kicked hubby out!! It was my parent’s place so I could do that! I had come into contact with that 19 year old guess he was 21 now but he was lookin attractive!! I went on a road trip with some friends and ended up at his place!! Hubby had baby boy, baby daddy had baby girl I was free for the weekend!! I stayed with the 19 year old for the entire weekend!! I was ashamed in some ways but felt alive in some other ways!! So I was off and runnin! He gave me no reason to think that he wanted to be in a relationship that consisted of anything but sex!! But I moved me and my kids to a college campus 2 hours away from anyone I knew except for this guy!! I told hubby we were getting divorced and didn’t even give him a reason!! I didn’t know what the reason was!! Baby daddy was between jobs so I took him with me!! I told you I was crazy!! There was no love for him and I had been afraid of him more than once but he was all for me getting away from hubby!! So away we went!! No romance between me and baby daddy just roomies and he babysat for me while I went to class!! I carried on with the 19 yr old (21) for a month or so!! And then he said you are Crazy and you scare me!! No love just sex!! Ok I have heard that before where do I keep finding these men?? Couldn’t be me!!
I met this other guy !! finished my divorce! I was living with my ex (baby daddy), still married but getting divorced, and hung up on some kid that I scared!! What the hell did this guy see in me?? Any of them!! I warned him…he didn’t listen!! I had to move off campus because in the middle of all this drama I messed school up big time and lost my financial aid. I moved into project housing in a city where I barely knew anyone!! Other guy was a permanent fixture in my house he and his son!! I loved his son!! Within a few months they moved in with me! Baby daddy had left town..that is another post! And the 19 yr old was just hangin out everyonce in awhile! He was actually friends with other guy that is how we met?!? Hubby was devastated at my life!! He was torn and I was cruel!! He came and got baby boy regularly and was always miserable!! Then he got angry!! He got a life and he moved on!! WHAT!!! So here I was stuck with other guy and his son!! I loved his son!!
Hubby decided to join the Air Force!! OMG!! He was really leaving me!! Duh!! I was such a bitch!! After he left I got a clue!! He was gone and it was my fault!! I didn’t know what was wrong with me but I finally knew it was me all me!! I made other guy leave with his son !! It was hard I loved his son!! Hubby was set to graduate from basic training and payed for plain tickets for me, baby girl, and baby boy!! We went to see hubby graduate! He was soso hot in tthose Air Force Blues!! Baby boy was like are you my daddy! I guess when you are 2 it is difficult to keep track with a mom like me!! We had an awesome weekend! Baby girl was happy that we were a family again!! We had to leave so hubby could go to tech school and there was much tears!! Hubby had to be gone for 6 more months!!
I knew I wanted to be with hubby !! Patience and lonelieness are so not my thing!! I went to see hubby once by myself! It was a weekend of crazy circus sex!! And lots of do you want to be with me? Can you forgive me? What happened? I dunno? What has to change? Can you do that? Promises promises promises!! I went home all pumped .. I was gonna get my life back even though I didn’t deserve it!! Hubby got washed back because he failed a test! He was gonna be gone longer! Hubby called! He loved the airforce! He wanted to go full time! Will you go with me? NO!!! I like my life!! No problem with weekend warrior!! No I do not want to be married to the military!!! Hubby keep your life live it!! I called other guy!! He came runnin!! He was stalkin me anyway!! Baby girl was sad ! baby boy was confused!! Baby daddy was furious! Hubby was devastated!! I just was!!
Ok so at 20 I was heavy pregnant with my first child! My daughter!! She was my first lesson in unconditional love!! I had gotten clean when I was 19 so that was outta the way!! My daughter’s dad and I were planning a wedding…I made my bed I would have to lay in it!!!!
Hubby came into this convenience store I was workin in! He was wearin no shirt!! OMG!!!! He was , is soooo hot!! He had this wink…it made me weak!! But here I was wearin a Winnie the Pooh maternity shirt in all my pregnant glory!! I left work and phoned cousin!! She was like oh he is getting married to some rich bitch he met at work! Well he had finally dumped the first one. But too bad too little too late!! So I married baby daddy and he married his first wife!!
Tragedy struck hubby’s family! His little brother was killed in a car accident in 1997! My daughter was not quite a year old yet. I struggled with stayin away or going! I was part of that family with or without hubby! Called cousin…she needed me she said! I got to the funeral and stood in the back..standing room only!! Afterwards hubby hugged me and we cried!!! I was so sad for him and for the world they lost an awesome son that day!! Hubby’s wife interrupted with a big scene about him hugging me for too long. Wanted to SMACK her!! But I didn’t I left gracefully with knots in my stomach and went back to my job and then back home to baby daddy!! Baby daddy was a mean man! He still is! He didn’t lay his hands on me very many times…I fought back!!! But he cheated on me!! How dare he! I was as miserable if not more than he was but he was out playin!! Fine that gave me an out! We hadn’t even been married for 2 months and he was out with someone else! So I saved my money bought my own car and in 2 months left!! That was nasty!! But that is another post!! I was approached one day at work by Hubby’s mom. She and I had never met! She says I hear you used to date my son. I was like OK who and do you hate me bad I am a different person than I used to be! She tells me she is hubby’s mom and she wishes he had married me instead of the bitch he did marry! We have a good laugh. I am even more amused at the fact that she and I work together and have for months wow small world! She asks me for my number but I don’t give it to her!! I have just gotten out of a marriage for cheating was not about to be a part of that!! Not even for hubby and not gonna hurt even the bitch!! I dated other people and had me some fun! Had to move from the cracker box trailor I was living in to a nice cozey apartment so I call on some guy friends to help out! One guy shows up to help and who does he have with him but Hubby!!! OMG!!!!! Hubby helps me move all day! I took everyone for pizza and bowling as a thankyou!! Hubby flirts relentlessly!! I flirt back!! Can’t help myself! Hubby follows me outside and grabs me with those strong arms..weak weak weak!! I kissed him!! But I told him to leave, lose my number, forget where I live!!! He can remember anything he likes if and only if he becomes single!!!!!
I dated this 19 year old guy!! I was 23…but now I know how stella really got her groove back LOL!! I would drive by hubby’s work and leave notes…bad bad bad!! I drove by hubby’s house and honked! He never knew it was me!! Well I had a light out on the car and needed a man to change it…*wink*wink* Hubby helped me…he says you stalkin me??*wink*wink* I was like no not me!! You are a married man!! 19 year olds are immature (took me a minute) and we had split!! Hubby’s mom stops me at work one day and says hey I need your number! I was like no I already told ya and him NOWAY!! She says are ya sure..he has left her!! OHHHH different story! Here ya go. Mom has my number in her back pocket and I got her in mine!!
Hubby calls about a month later! We met at a dance again it was Valentine’s day! He came home with me…but no nookie!! He held me until the sun came up! It was just like old times! Which one of us was the playa then I don’t know!! But it felt good and I hadn’t felt good in along time! He was moving in with a friend.. I told him I didn’t want him to!! I wanted him to move in with me!! Are ya sure? Sure I’m sure!! So away we went!! I was in college, hubby got a good job! He told me you should quit your job so you can finish school! I will take care of you and baby girl!! Baby daddy caused much drama!! Jealous and mean!! Bitch caused much drama!! They didn’t have kids they had dogs!! They fought for custody of the dogs!! But we did ok!! We planned a wedding and life was full for the next 11 months!! Custody battles, divorces, wedding plans!! WHAT WERE WE THINKING!?
January 1, 2000 we were married!! It was beautiful. I was so in love!! For like 5 minutes!! I was still crazy and my biggest fear in life was getting everything I ever wanted and being bored to death!! No more court battles no more wedding plans not much drama MADE ME NUTS I guess!! I was pregnant within a few months of our wedding!! I was miserable and angry!! I wanted to finish college before I had another baby (yes I was on the pill)! I wanted life to be better before I had another baby! I didn’t want to have this baby!! I blamed hubby because he did want this baby!! So I left!!!! Big and pregnant with a baby I didn’t want and baby girl in tow I left!! Hubby was devastated!! I didn’t ask for a divorce! I didn’t date! I was gone for like 5 months!
Baby daddy started some more drama!! He frightened me…I hid!! Hubby and I talked ever day!! My mom had him over for dinner often. She and step-dad took his side!! Well I guess I was kinda nuts!! I worked 2 jobs…considered what I was going to do when this baby was born and ran from baby daddy!! Parents went out of town one weekend…they took baby girl with them!! I was alone and scared and lonely!! Baby boy moved for the first time!! Hubby called.. I told him that baby boy moved and I also told him I was scared!! He was there in a few minutes. I did the deed in my parent’s house..felt like a teenager but I was married so it was legal right? Baby girl and I moved back in with hubby within the next week!!
So much for me being all sweet and innocent!! Has been a long road to get here and Peachy wanted to know…
OK so here is the story…… Hubby and I met when I was 14 on New Year’s Eve 1989! He was just about to turn 18. We met at an AA dance! He has been sober since a year before that..me not so much! I didn’t get sober until 5 years later…but that is another story! When we met I was sooo in love..but he was 18 so he was just your normal guy! We dated for a few months but no nookie = no boyfriend I guess!! Plus we lived like ½ hour apart and at that age that is a long distance relationship. I moved to the town he lived in at the beginning of the next school year, but he was out of school. When I saw him for the first time he was dating someone else so I just said Hi and kept walking. I was very good friends with his cousin, who he lived with at the time. I would go to her house for BBQs and see him…there was much flirting!! One morning his alarm was goin off at like 5 am! Like I said I wasn’t sober so I was perturbed and went to his room to tell him to turn off the alarm…it got shut off but he got turned ON!! Something in my young self made me ask him (before the deed) is this gonna mean anything to you? He was such a dumb teen age boy…he said NO! I remember getting out of his bed and running up the stairs! He swears to this day that I slapped him. I don’t remember that ( he deserved it if I did!!) I called someone to come and get me and just stayed locked away in a bedroom until they came…I don’t know exactly how long it was before I saw him again…but like always there was this very magnetic pull to him and vice versa I think.
I remember being 16 and learning how to drive! People were always at my house from meetings all the young kids. We stayed up all night and made breakfast at like 3 am..it was great fun!! I came home from work one night to find hubby sittin at my kitchen table. Hey. Hey yourself. How’s life? How’s the girlfriend. Fine. Good!! I was in a panic! I had a real live date in a few hours. Horrified by my wardrobe and complaining like teenage girls do!! Hubby took me to the mall and picked me a new out fit and bought it for a date with someone else ?!?! How sweet was that? Went on the date, came home hubby still there ?!?! Hubby was hot for MOM!!!! He never told her…I didn’t know till later! That passed…guess my mom was Stacy’s mom too! LOL Hubby lost his license for driving with no insurance and having an accident. He would call me for rides to work, rides to meetings, rides around the block!! We made out like MAD!!! Still no nookie!! One of us always stopped before it got to that point! I was dating other people and hubby had a girlfriend! I asked him one moonlit night why he didn’t just leave her and be with me? He replied that she was a total bitch but he knew what to expect from her! He said I was beautiful but crazy and he never knew what to expect from me! He would rather be miserably stable than blissfully unstable ??!?! OK Another year or so, give or take no contact with hubby!! Stayed stoned and wild and beautiful CRAZY!!
When I was 17 I moved out of my mom’s! I was emancipated! Had to go to lots of meetings was afraid someone would find out how stoned I really was and they would kick me out of school or get me fired from my job! Found hubby again or he found me dunno! Was a really bad relationship I was in…abusive on both parts!! Lots of broken dishes and furniture!! Needless to say I moved back home with mom!! Came home one day to hubby sitting at the dining room table again! Still hot for Momma?? No! How is the girlfriend? Still a bitch!! Ok whateva! Same shit different year!! STONED STONED and more STONED!! He had an awesome car! I had a bad incident with some other guy who was living at my mom’s! Hubby stayed so I would be safe! Well ya know….yes we finally did the deed! Under the Christmas tree!! Was awkward after all that time!! But beautiful too, what I remember! Hubby permanent fixture for a few days!! Weekend came it was party time!! Took hubby to a friend’s house! He swears it was an orgy! My friends and I were totally messed up!! Hubby had no idea we were stoned…he was too horny to notice!! My best friend had a nickname for me..Critter!! dunno why! She asked him if he was in love with her critter!!!! He was like uh no!!!! He didn’t know she was talking about me…he thought she was talking about her..well ya know!! Any way! We took his car and went on a mission to find a red condom!! Dunno was my friends necessity!! When we came back it was of course on again we did the deed!! I was mad at me because at that point I thought hubby had said he didn’t love me!! But I gave in anyways!! Didn’t speak to hubby for like 2 years!! No phone calls and he must have been scared because he didn’t come by anymore either!!
YOU WANTED THE STORY PEACHY MIGHT AS WELL BE THE WHOLE THING !!! LOL more will be revealed! Kwick
**must figure out how to put music on here!!! Def Leopard..Have you ever need someone so bad! that was the song we tortured ourselves with for years!
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