"Life is no brief candle to me. It is a sort of splendid torch
which I have got a hold of for the moment, and I want to make it
burn as brightly as possible before handing it onto future
generations."

-- George Bernard Shaw

Dear Jewels,

You were the mama! You made my daddy smile. You raised my brother to be a good man and mostly you did it alone. You never judged and I looked forward to a lifetime of advice. I never heard a cross word even when you were sick and dying. You called to me in those last few days…I was touched. I hope you know that you left footprints in my soul. That I aspire to be like you…although I think I shall fail. You never let us know if there was any hardship you were suffering. You were always loving and gentle and seemed to be at peace. I cannot understand why God took you when he did…but wherever I go I take you with me. Happy Mother’s Day Momma Jewels!

Dear Grammy,

You loved me always…even when I was unlovable! You where honest with me when no-one else was. You had faith like I have never seen. You showed me that life can be good if you let it. You endured so much and you were not bitter. You were always there to take care of me when I was sick. I knew if I was ever hungry you would feed me. You were the simplest complex person I have ever known. I was there the day you left and I know you were happy to go! It hasn’t been easy but knowing that you are watching over me makes me feel better somehow. You don’t have to wait till Sunday to put us on the prayer list now. You are my Grammy and I will love you always! Happy Mother’s Day


(Grammy, little girl my great-grandmother raised, Great- Grandma, Nana, and Great-Grandpa)
Dear Nana,

How much fun we have had! There have been a thousand and one walks! We have fed baby animals and made sandboxes. You gave me piggy back rides and threw rocks in the creek with me. I love the pancakes you used to make before school in the morning. I know that you miss Grammy just as much as I do..but you just keep on being Nana! It scares me to see you get week. And I love it when you smile. I will let you hold my hand any time you need because you always held mine. I love you more than I could ever show…my brave strong Nana! Happy Mother’s Day!

Dear Momma,

You have always loved me the best you could. The road has been long and had many twists and turns. We have struggled through many troubles….life handed us plenty. I write this letter last, not because it is the least important…but the hardest to write. We have both been unlovable at times. Somehow we manage to keep a relationship..that has broken and healed, broken and healed again. I know you did the best you could with what you had and that Grammy did the same for you! I know that wasn’t always great…but it was what it was. I have been watching you grow just like you watched me. We are both working hard to make today better than yesterday and that is all anyone can ask. I pray that someday we can have all roses and that you know I love you no matter what. Forgiveness and healing is a long road that we have been traveling together at our own pace. I love you momma and I will always be your baby girl! Happy Mother’s Day!



Thank you Jewels, Thank you Grammy, Thank you Nana, and Thank you Momma…I am the lady I am today because of all of you! Thank you for a lifetime of stepping stones and a path that I can continue on until I continue no more. Happy Mother’s Day!

Yes Colo, today I am juggling! Although I have to say I am not very good at it.

I work part time...like 4 hours a day give or take...and there are girls at the convenient store I see twice a day who are envious...they wouldn't be if they saw my paycheck

I have no idea how I managed when my daughter was little, being a single mom going to college and working 40+ hours a week. My props to those of you who still do that!
Today I work part time, my daughter lives with her dad, and I am married (he is deployed though, so sometimes I still feel like a single mom). My son started pee wee baseball this summer and his first game is Saturday. My daughter started diving about a month ago and her first meet was last Saturday. She called me last night to inform me that she has another meet coming up in 2 Saturdays. I knew I was gonna have to face this ... but I am still not sure how. I explained to her that my son has a baseball game for the next 6 Saturdays and then baseball is over....she dives all year round. I feel bad, because as of now she still wants me around. I went last weekend because I was sure I am going to have difficulty getting to the meets for the next 6 weeks. So here I sit waiting for times and places (last week her meet was 2 hours away) and my calendar in hand trying to schedule getting to 2 places in one day possibly hours away. I know I am not going to be able to make it happen every weekend but I will any weekend possible. I hate this. I tried to explain to her that I am the only parent availabe to take my son to his games and she does have her dad who can take her to meets. This only seemed to enrage her more.
I guess that will have to remain a work in progress!
And as for my part time job...they like my work! Great..thanks for all the praise. So they gave me work to do at home...so I wouldn't have to find a sitter for longer. I set my alarm for 2:30 this morning..so I could put my son to bed with snuggle time at his request...and still get this work done that has to be proofed and off to the printer by Friday. I had it all but finished and get an email that the printer wants this stuff typed out in Publisher not Word. Ok, shouldn't be too hard to copy and paste it into Publisher..right? Wrong! I lost I don't know how much in the process and have figured it is going to take less time to probably just rekey it all rather than try to continue to copy and paste...which is my favorite function in word by the way
My son wants time my daughter wants to live here without having to live here (that's another blog..when I get the strength) My mom needs help with my nephew, my sister-in-law needs help with my niece, I need a day off...the groceries need bought...and the damn 3-legged dog just chewed up something else for me to have to pick up...oh and the neighborhood needs fed! Did I mention I need a day off! All this to do and so I sit here in the stream
Oops...dropped another one!
Have a great evening!
Grateful blessings all
Kwick

Did you know...

... that today is Trust Your Intuition Day? Go with a 'hunch'
today, for once!

Have a great day!
Kwick