Things that make me go hmmm or *%$#@ as the case may be....

~Spending $800.00 on repairs to vehicle only to have it blow up after 300 miles
~Brother who lets my nephew be raised by my mother, only to complain when he finds he is not getting a new baby son but another daughter
~Ex's who insist your child will be better off living with them only to let your 10 year old be a latch key kid when she finally does come to live with him
~Above baby daddy who complains about spelling grade but can't find the time to help baby girl study her spelling words
~Sister-in-law who makes promises she never keeps to baby boy who adores his auntie
~Teachers who constently recommend seeking pediatrician intervention for 5 year old who has a hard time staying on task (IE: put that kid on meds)
~Not knowing when the next paycheck is coming, still dealing with military orders (he's been home over a month!)
~Pushy Mary Kay consultant who loves her job that she makes no $ at but insists that you would love it too...and happens to be my mother
~Hubby is bored feeling like he has nothing to do, yet the truck needs work and the upstairs is still unfinished
~Hubby complains that no one comes to help him so he does nothing on the afore mentioned projects

AND NUMBER ONE ON MY LIST TONIGHT>>>>>
~ Hubby recieves mysterious rose left on his truck in our driveway and has no idea who or why someone would leave him a rose!!!!!


Much love and have a great evening!
Kwick

Do you ever wonder why it is that the people we trust the most in life usually turn out to be the ones that stab us in the back most often. I wonder if it is because we put way too much faith in someone who is after all only human, therefore we notice it most often or if it is that these people know us better than anyone and therefore have more ammo than the average offender....
I can't think of very many people in my life who haven't abused my trust at some point in time....whether it was cheating partners or boyfriend stealing best friends or family who just didn't live up to my expectations.
Recently I found myself in a situation talking to someone who I don't really trust at all about my family. After the conversation I wondered why I had said any of the things I had and then got a huge dose of humility. I had spent a short amount of time , still too much time, gossiping about situations that I get frustrated about to someone that had no business having an opinion or hearing mine so that she might share it with others. I attribute this to the fact that I have been on overload with drama that is mostly not mine!!! I have very few people in my life that I can confide in (OK rant rave and vent to). And those people have been well very busy lately !!
Today it occured to me that I have not blogged in quite a while and I might not feel so overloaded if I would simply do something that for me is comfortable and a great release!! I don't have to get specific but simply rant and rave at the keyboard and can feel oh so much better! Much gratitude to those on the stream!!
Much love, Kwick

When I was younger I confided in a friend that my biggest fear was that I would get exactly everything I ever wanted and be BORED out of my mind!! I think in response to that fear I spent lots of time sabotaging all things positive in my life! Today boring doesn't necessarily sound like a bad thing! I have been accused of being unstable and in part that may be true...but I think more so I had been running scared for years never sure what was going to make me secure enough to stop running! Today it seems that only I can make me secure. Most days I don't feel secure and not because there are any indications that I shouldn't ...that is just me I suppose! I will probably always be looking over my shoulder but today I want to do that from the comfort of where I am! I surely don't feel as if I have all the answers and I'm not sure I will ever be completely comfortable in my own skin but I am sure that if I am not comfortable where I am I won't be comfortable anywhere else either!
No for anyone who was wondering I haven't fallen off the face of the earth...I have been busy settling! Settling into new routines with hubby again and running interference between him and the rest of the world. Reminding him of all the things he used to take for granted...not by nagging just by being there! In doing that somewhere I guess maybe I feel lost! I am second again most days. Baby boy wants daddy to do this and daddy to do that. And laundry is all over and dishes piled high and even though there is another adult in the mix the mess seems to be getting bigger but not the assistance!! So I run around and do what I do and fall in bed no less exhausted than 2 months ago when I couldn't wait for hubby to come home so I could get a little rest!! Some things I suppose never change...my perspective however is a little more light hearted...Although I don't think hubby is quite up to hearing all my nag nag nagging and belly aching...so here it will have to stay for now....How long is appropriate before I assume the wifely duties of reminding hubby what exactly his duties are in the household LOL!! I suppose for now the remodel on the upstairs will have to be the extent of his duties...of course he does seem to be having quite a bit of fun with "Cuz" and my baby brother doing all that hammering and mudding and all that they are doing LOL making bunches of racket!! But seriously I am grateful that it may finally get done!! God bless ya Daddy for trying to get it done!! Next week we are going to take some fun time for us and the kids (hopefully) and then back to the grind!! Just wanted to let you all know I am still around and hopefully my schedule will smoothe out before too long and I can find some time to spend here on the stream!! Much love, Kwick